Showing posts with label god. Show all posts
Showing posts with label god. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

hospital bed.

Beginnings
and endings come here
with nothing such as divinity
or blessed cans of oil and incense
baptizing our souls
into eternity.
Nothing but ugly, fleshy, mortality,
the decaying stench of defeated microbes.
In brief flashes
that shatter time,
years slither away, forming milky pools
of withered age at the bedside.
Medicated synapses
are misfiring,
sending mixed emotions
to the conscious realization of an end.
Ghosts of past friends roam
the space around
the body melting under fluorescent lights,
fragile remnants of pain
and joy destined to be lost forever.

    


Wednesday, March 19, 2014

march 20, 2003.

Reign over me.
Emperor greed-fiend
whose name is engraved on the bullets.
Worms crawl to him for assurances
that we’re all beautiful and divine.

Hail to the god, the devil, and the defiler too.

Reign over me. Strike up the angelic chorus.
Harking on trumpets made of victims to a holy war.
Buying up the world
while the poor eat
the morphine
in the pudding
so the children won’t
remember what has been
committed in their names.

Rain fires. Reign people.
Popes, kings, and presidents.
Lunatics, tramps, and sinners.
Give of yourself for yourself!
Take what you want
and kill whomever gets in the way.
A whole land of worms
praying to be butterflies someday.
Reign future,
reign bullets,
reign fires
Reign over me, oh, sweet American dream.



Tuesday, March 18, 2014

cats.

Things like this probably happen all the time and always quite quickly. Afterwards, when things were calmer, I said, “Wow, that happened really fast.” As if some slow motion camera trick should have made it move a little slower to better understand it all.
     
Why did the cat cross the road? Don’t really know but it ended crushed under a brown sedan in an arc of twists and spastic convulsions right in front of our driveway. The thing jumped about in demon possessed fits, bouncing like a fish gasping for air, one of its eyes had become detached and it too bounced with its own squishy squashy sounds on the pavement.
     
The culprit, a late model sedan, kept on driving on down the street; it was out of sight by the time Gisele pulled over and we got out of the car. She was all maternal and hormonal because of the baby inside her and she drew out a teary wet wail; she opened the doors of whatever afterlife that thing had in store with her own feelings of loss and grief. I wasn’t as touched by the moment as I was awed by the event.
     
As its impulses and nerve endings began to give up so did the convulsive hysteria and it settled into meandering twitching until finally nothing. It’s deflated eyeball still attached by bloody sinewy tendrils to its skull. I just stood there, bearing witness to its closing ceremony.
     
Gisele ran inside to get Benny in hopes that he could offer some advice and possible consolation; he’s the clear-headed one in these types of situations.
     
I recognized the now dead carcass in front of me. It was less than a year old and its mother was a regular at our doorstep. I’m sure it and all its siblings were born under the house. The matron feline now watched as one of her offspring passed away, perched on the ledge of the flower bed, like an Egyptian statue made of dark stone, her eyes wide and fixed on her child.
     
Benny came out and looked at the pitiful object now lying before him. Gisele noticed the mother watching and attempted to console her for her loss. It ran, not knowing enough of the human need for closure and compassion. We all agreed that it deserved a proper burial, even though we couldn’t dig up a hole and drop it in. The land was rented and wasn’t ours to do with as we pleased. Instead the county animal control would be called in the morning to come and retrieve it. I mentioned that with any luck they could send a truck out here sometime before the dead thing begins to compost and we’d be left with the skeletal remains before bureaucracy’s wheel started moving. Benny agreed but felt it would be the right thing to do, Gisele mentioned that she would make sure it would get done, even if she had to call them a few dozen times.
     
Later that night, I could hear the other strays mawling and meowing while I lay in bed. I imagined that they were mourning the loss of one of their own; somehow it made the whole event more appropriate thinking that. Looking out the window I noticed some of them fighting and growling, a few of the more dominate and aggressive males had taken to feeding on the dead; desperate times. The ones eating of the flesh were older, their fur matted with filth and missing in some areas, mangier than the rest that usually stay near the houses; tomcats that probably came from the other side of the park or from somewhere else entirely. Some of the local strays were fighting for territory and privilege and the bigger toms were attempting to keep them back and winning. The dangling eyeball had already been consumed and one of the cannibals was burrowing into the skull through the opening.
     
The sound of war continued and was getting fiercer. Something had to be done if I was going to get some sleep; I threw on some shoes and grabbed a large black trash bag. As I stepped out the door many of the cats fled, except the few braver ones and the two intruders, approaching the carcass the remainder of the group fled except the one tom that had been fighting for his right to eat. The concept of being stared down by a flea bitten cat is one of those things you don’t expect to happen in our day-to-day lives. He began growling and poised itself for attack, a medium sized stone to the head sent it scurrying.
     
Using the plastic as a shield I grabbed the body and was able to pull the bag around it, lifting it up properly. With a quick walk across the empty lot in front of the house I was at the fence to the yard crew’s facility; a large blue dumpster was on the other side. One full arm swing and the bag and partially eaten cat landed with an echoing boom. Walking back the matron feline was at her perch, watching me with eyes the color of mourning.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

beach day moments.

Papier-mâché houses 
built at the water’s edge.
    
Painted structures
in nostalgic colors                                                                                                                                   to remind their dwellers
of youthful summers on
visions of historical postcards.

Those who carry crosses are gathering
to wash their savior’s blood from their hands.
Like children playing at the water’s edge,
the water pools around their feet.
          
Mother of us all
washes away their tainted selves.

The sound of the tide
echoes the laughter
of the gulls.
Envious creatures protesting to a broken man.
He hears their complaints,
taunts;
he attempts
to answer them, properly.
They cannot understand his prophetic words.

He expels the air
from within him               
tiny rivers
ripples within his eyes.

The hecklers don’t understand him,
protesting louder,
with deeper convictions.
     
He tosses pieces of bread
in a defeated gesture,   
accepting his own fate.
The heckling clowns
gobble up the old man’s offering
of peace and reconciliation
still laughing
as they fill their bellies.